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I've gotten myself into this,
and I have to get myself out,
I can't do it anymore...

The fighting,
the constant arguing...
The unwanted physical contact,
that always seems to make things worse.

But I'm helpless,
inadequate to get myself out of here,
to lose myself,
to love myself again..

You've dried me up,
I can't feel myself..
I wake up everyday with another piece missing,
another sleepless night,
another night laying next to you.

I'm sick of it,
I CAN do much better than you,
Someone who cares,
who loves,
who dances at random times,
just like me.

Not someone like you...
Boring,
older,
wanting to settle down.

I want that adventure,
I want to struggle,
I want to have fun..

We are more like roommates than lovers,
than anything possible,
But I'm still helpless...
Lost in a lost land,
Terrified of what each second brings,
whether you will be pissed off at me,
or ignore me.

I can't live like this anymore...
its gotta end...
it has to end.....